It’s Sunday morning.
Chris and I will soon head out to Costco and Target to do our monthly supply run. When we get back, I will pack my car, hug my family and fur babies, and leave for another few days. Maybe this time, I won’t cry so much.
It’s been good to be home. It was hard to focus on all the things that I needed to catch up on, though. We did some cleaning, I taught a class, met with clients, and we had some family time. I also bought some makeup for myself that was a splurge for me. I haven’t been feeling good about my aging body these days, but adding a little makeup to my day perks me up. I don’t do it often, but when I’m feeling down, I do. Kylie also bought me an early Mother’s Day gift—a makeup brush to add to my growing collection. We saw Guardians of the Galaxy as a family.
I haven’t done schoolwork in two weeks, so I need to make that a focus when I get to the birth center.
Yesterday, I packed my suitcase and took out all the things that I don’t need on this go-round. I’m sure it will take me a few weeks to figure out what is important for me to bring and to leave behind. When I get to the birth center, I will need to make another trip to the grocery store so I have a few things to cook while I am there.
During my time home, my schoolmate, Melissa, made me a YouCaring campaign. She has been my confidant in school and my counselor when I struggle with school, life, and combining it all. She knows how hard it is to find a midwife preceptor—it’s why she left California for Washington. I don’t want to move, but I kinda have, just without the family. I will leave my family for an unknown amount of time, on a weekly basis, to get the births that I need to get my numbers for midwifery school. I very much appreciate her thoughtfulness.
Because I now live half-time away from my family, we are holding down TWO households and I am the still the sole income since Chris remains on medical leave from work. This apprenticeship came up suddenly, and I just couldn’t pass it up. It’s one of the reasons why Melissa started the YC campaign for me—to help ease the burden that we are facing.
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